These are my legs and I am fed up of being ashamed of them.
I see beautiful, strong legs that you should be proud of
The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill herself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling.
Well…tomorrow is move in. I’m not feeling strong at all. I am on the edge of having a breakdown but I know I have to do this. I don’t know how I’m going to make it through another school year….especially off by myself at college. I’m so scared.
I relapsed. I had gone over four weeks. I messed it up.
My fucking suicidal thoughts need to leave me the fuck alone because it’s really tempting right now but I know I can’t do that to my family.
I can’t do this. I can’t. I’m so stressed out about college/move in that I feel nauseous.
shout out to everybody who has school soon
i believe in you
you will be excellent this year
and if you’re not that’s ok too it doesn’t mean you’re not smart
just remember to take care of yourself because your mental health is more important than your grades ok?
group hug ily all
I move into college in 2 days and I am so nervous and scared and triggered and dreading it.