Update 9/28

— I spent the night at my best friend’s house and today we went to a shopping district near her dorm and it was so much fun

— AND I spontaneously agreed to getting frozen custard while we were out…I generally plan everything ahead of time so that was a win!

— That’s about all I have to say about today. Once I got home from her place, I’ve just been relaxing

Feeling guilty from the moment you wake up about what you ate yesterday is one of my favorite things. 

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(Very Delayed) Update 9/27

— Today was the day that I moved out from college and it was super stressful and triggering

— I ate icecream and didn’t feel painfully guilty afterward (and it’s also a hge win because 9 times out of 10 I end up purging icecream)

— I am spending the night at my best friend’s dorm and it has been a lot of fun

Well… My dorm is all cleaned out. {

Well… My dorm is all cleaned out.

I feel so guilty for eating breakfast this morning.

Update 9/26

— I went for my blood work and EKG today and I scheduled an appointment for a physical on Wednesday so I am hoping to be able to fax in all the medical paper work to the treatment center and be approved to start two mondays from now (October 6th)

— Despite how low I felt today I didn’t act out on any of my urges (self harm and purging mainly) so I guess that is a good thing

— Tomorrow is the day I am going to move my stuff out of my dorm and turn over the keys (yay having my art stuff back at home!)

— My anxiety was super high today…like couldn’t be around people or anything without my heart racing and shaking

— I got to hang to with my best friend because she was home from college this weekend and we might be going to an lgbt+ bar for glow night tomorrow if I get done moving in time

— My goal for tomorrow is to not skip breakfast since I’ll  be up in plenty of time to have it before I leave to go retrieve my stuff